i think i finally figured out what my problem is. the quarter-life crisis. basically, i came to the point in my life where i realize i've been in school for over 20 straight years, without a clear end in sight (yet), and no discernible "practical" skills. that's a pretty depressing thought, don't you think?
i've seen friends go through it so i'm surprised it took me so long to come to this conclusion. pretty bad timing though, as i have a preliminary exam to get through!